Fallen Princesses by Dina Goldstein
what i want to know is….why do we try to fit in?? and seeing as how EVERYONE is trying to fit in…why do we all think were so unique and different? is it because everyone else is different? or claiming they are ? i mean, i go to school and i observe people. i hear the conversations and i look at certain peoples reactions when they see specific individuals. i see how some people use their time and i can tell by their body language how they feel about what theyre doing. i think im just annoyed at all the standard procedures that other people go through each day that really have no level of importance. and this is no cockyness or anything but.. i see girls and guys come to school acting like, talking like, walking like theyre cuter and better than everyone in their circle. my question to you guys is WHY do u think this ? what did u do differently this morning that i didnt do or that they didnt do to make u so different. and then we have those ones that try to “act” like they have such a bad past and they almost brag about their struggles… im sorry but i dont respect you just because u went through some fucked up shit. ill respet u if u go through some shit and come out a better person, but it looks like ur a pure product of that “fucked up shit” so i DONT respect you or your past. i see hoes talking about hoes. laughing at them, talking shit because they fucked this person or that person and shes a whore and bla bla bla when in reality youre just insecure because YOU are a hoe as well and everyones looking at you because they are thinking the same shit but you think theyre your friends. and they all know that u think theyre your friends. so they wont say anything. why not??? why wont they say aything ?? BECAUSE THEY WANT TO FIT IN!!! the same things are popular with everyone. everyone wants to talk about the illuminati or zodiac signs but have u read a book about it? have u actually got on the computer and researched it? doubt it. i wish people would stop indetifying themselves with their zodiac. why have u lost yourself as an identifyer. why do u all of a sudden even care what youre considered because of your birthday ?? WHY?? BECAUSE YOU WANT TO FIT IN!! i hear people having really stupid conversations, smiling everytime a guy speaks to them, totally unaware of everything else at the moment. i see girls and guys walkin around real sloppy and i can TELL that all these individuals really are feelin themselves. and thats fine, be confident, strut your stuff go ahead but WHY do yu think this? because one guy smiled at you? because youre an aries? because u convinced everyone that beyonce is the leader of illuminati?? WHY?? you are a grown women/man. u need to find confidence some other way. u need to carry youself differently. simple minded people i feel see through tunnels (tunnel vision) they only see whats in front of them and thats it. maybe its because their fake eye lashes are too big that they lost their peripheral vision idk. but you need to open your eyes a little more. it really makes me sick that ppl think theyre cool and better than others pecause they sit in a circle or all are in the same car or all know the same people and then they shun everyone else like YOU ARE NOT COOL!! you are STUPID!! its not the technology killing us humans off and seperating us from ourselves and eachother. it not the money its not the fame its US!!! we are doing this to ourselves and we all are condoning it and we dont even know it, its natural . because WE ARE ALL TRYING TO FIT IN!! lately ive turned a new leaf. i want to make new friends. i want to meet new people. i want to know why they are here. what is their goals and why do they feel so determined to achieve it. and these are the people i want to suround myself with. i dont ever want to fit in! i want to stand out and if im a loner because of it , if i have a whole different “swag” because of it, thats fine i dont care i dont even want the swag you give me honestly i just want to be me. i dont wanna be labeled i dont wanna wanna be a scorpio and i dont want u to think that u know me bacuse of my zodiac sign bcecause you DONT! i was looking at this girl today, she was reading a book. and my mind started wandering, i was staring a little bit. she was just really petite, real pale, big glasses , what everyone else would call a nerd. first i thought “what is she reading” then i thought, “is it good?” then i was like “i wonder if she reads alot?” then i asked myself “i wonder what her home life is like. what is her personality? whats in her mind?” and i really wanted to ask. then this boy came and sat next to me and asked me if i was ok? i said “ya i was just looking at her” he said “are u playin for the other team or something?” my point exactly. i stare at a person wondering what theyre thinking and how their thoughts work. u see me staring and think its sexual! this is the world i live in. and i just cant deal anymore. you call her the nerd because shes not covered in jewelry and make up and shes spending her time reading a 6 inch thick book but what the fuck are YOU doing?? oh ya talking about zodiac signs. lemme ask u this, are u taking a zodiac CLASS? no ! are u taking a birthday class?? NO ! what did u learn from this convo??? NOTHING. what did she learn??? i rest my case. she stood out.. i remember her face, i dont remember yours i didnt even LOOK at yours because you are BASIC! youre trying to fit in. i dont want to fit in. laugh at her but laugh while u can because these nerds are the people your dumb simple minded asses are gonna be begging for a job from! i know its hard to think past 2 trains of thought but just try to get to 3. try to find a deeper meaning to something that isnt “shit happens” or “everything happens for a reason”… try FINDING that reason. maybe then youll “fit in” with the “nerds” and then youll stand out!! youre playiong in the wrong team people… peel your fake lashes off and take ur snapback off maybe youll see it !
I’mma rap to you real quick. I wanna enjoy the luxury of like, not knowing each other for real. Hol’ up
Lotus flower bomb, firefly
When I’m low, she take me high
I can teach you all the sounds of love
Flowerbomb, let me guess your favorite fragrance
And you got that bomb, huh, I’m tryna detonate you
No disrespecting baby, just tryna make you smile
Try to keep my spirits up, that’s why I lays it down
Try to keep your spirits up, lil vodka whatever
Took you forever to get dressed, I acknowledge your effort
So I clap for her, she deserves an applause
Shawty working so hard, she deserve that Vuitton
Shawty where your baton, racing through my mind like
She heard that I got that work, I heard that she been on strike
Care to tell, I read your mind, she been on them dollars first
Caramel macchiatos when shawty get into work
I can be your boyfriend be your nigga or a friend with perks
I’m just tryna work that huh, they just tryna work your nerves
I’m just tryna read your mind, I’m just tryna feed you mine
I’m just tryna give you light, they just tryna leave you blind
We’re living in a fantasy
I feel it when you dance with me
It’s feeling like you need to be
My lady, my baby, yeah
Can’t you see
I’m talking about eternity
Tell me would you care to be
My lady, my baby
Flower bomb, can I blow up on your mind
This is not no Sandra Bull, but you’re Potion #9
Navigating through her eyes, destination to her thighs
And I hate to tell you too much, cuz I stay with too much pride
And we way too young to know love, maybe not but we don’t need no rush
Don’t believe in love at first sight, but I believe in love at first huh
Can I be with you just one night, I could wear you out inside
I could tell you like persistence, but I make you cum in tri’s
I just think we need one night, can’t decide if I came right
Easy baby my thing tight, but that lotus flower just ain’t right
I ain’t thinking I ain’t right, can’t decide but I can’t fight
Easy baby you the bomb and all, but I be damned if I do not land mine
Or at least try, can I speak up? was it peace out? can we eat lunch?
Can we take shots with your flavor, flat drinks we call A cups
I just think I need one night, slightly more if it’s done right
With that gorgeous face, I don’t know your name, it ain’t important babe cuz I’mma call you Mine
Cuz you don’t know who, you don’t know when
If I keep stickin’ baby, what’s it gonna be
You don’t know who, you don’t know when
Let me teach you all the sounds of love
Ahhhh, ayyyyy, eeeeee, ahh ohh ooo
Baby this was for you, lotus
Overtime, people change, ideas change, morals change, views change and WE change. Traditions don’t! Neither do natural expectations. One battle that we, as a whole, have always and will always find as a constant battle is relationships. What is this whole love thing? What is a REAL relationship? Is it boyfriend and girlfriend, fiancé, husband, wife, what is it? What qualifies anything to be a RELATIONSHIP? The answer is….none of these. These are just titles that we, especially women need in order to feel secure in the relationship. And feel promised of a future. But still, these titles mean much more than words… you talk to someone, you’re interested, u like them, trust them, want to share your days with them, so you make them your boyfriend or girlfriend…now the trial run. See how long it lasts? Is he crazy? Is she crazy? Are they who I thought they were in the beginning? Some people don’t need to look for all these things if there’s no goal.. But honestly, if you get into a relationship and don’t decide on a destination for it, there’s no point. You’re both lying to yourselves and to each other. So stop while you’re ahead and wait for someone u see a future with. If you find that this person does have what it takes to be considered into your future apply yourself, train yourself, teach yourself and open yourself up to new things, changes, traditions, morals, values, etc. To have a successful relationship does not mean to never argue and always agree. Disagreements allow growth both within yourself and the relationship. It is a golden opportunity to learn. We’re never too grown to learn. So don’t throw in the towel once you start to bicker, just listen to each other and help one another out. Maybe one person doesn’t know how to express themselves, help them. If one person doesn’t know how to compromise, help them. You’re here for EACHOTHER! You have chosen this person to teach, learn from, feed off of, grow with and grow because of. You can’t have any of this without the obvious respect, consideration and patience. Each person deserves the right to a fair chance in everything. If you have an issue with something they do, let them know. Give them a chance to RESPECT AND CONSIDER your feelings. YOU have to be PATIENT with this. If this person has the decency to respect and consider, you have yourself a winner, honestly. What people don’t realize is the responsibility that comes with committing yourself to one person and one person only. But, if you’re mature, and willing to adjust, you shouldn’t have any problems. If the relationship you’re in is a relationship you want…fight for it, work on it and work through it and grow! It’s really a beautiful thing if you have it all down. If for any reason you do NOT want to fight for what you and he/she has, then that’s a reason to leave. Nobody deserves to fight for someone that won’t fight for them. You have to learn each other, study each other and know how to react to certain situations to avoid conflict. If you pay enough attention it becomes a breeze. Treat him like a king and treat her like a queen. With that, there should never be problems. Know how your mind and heart works and work AROUND IT. Learn THEIR mind, THEIR heart. And consider THEIR feelings. Stepping into a relationship is a sacrifice. Sacrifice WILL be required whether its something as small as not texting a certain person or not saying certain things to other people, the list can go on forever. If your partner has a strong uncomfort level because of something you’re doing, you need to consider that, take it to heart and think, if they were doing this, and I didn’t like it, would I want them to stop? Pretty sure your answer is yes. Nobody is perfect, it will hardly ever get done right on the first try, which is why u must have patience and know how to apply it. Treat your relationship like a baby even though you’re adults. Take care of it, shower it with love, check up on it to make sure it’s doing ok, spoil it, discipline it, train it, smile when it grows, consider its surroundings, respect its delicacy, expect it to go somewhere, prepare for growth and love it like it’s yours!
-Holly
