what i want to know is….why do we try to fit in?? and seeing as how EVERYONE is trying to fit in…why do we all think were so unique and different? is it because everyone else is different? or claiming they are ? i mean, i go to school and i observe people. i hear the conversations and i look at certain peoples reactions when they see specific individuals. i see how some people use their time and i can tell by their body language how they feel about what theyre doing. i think im just annoyed at all the standard procedures that other people go through each day that really have no level of importance. and this is no cockyness or anything but.. i see girls and guys come to school acting like, talking like, walking like theyre cuter and better than everyone in their circle. my question to you guys is WHY do u think this ? what did u do differently this morning that i didnt do or that they didnt do to make u so different. and then we have those ones that try to “act” like they have such a bad past and they almost brag about their struggles… im sorry but i dont respect you just because u went through some fucked up shit. ill respet u if u go through some shit and come out a better person, but it looks like ur a pure product of that “fucked up shit” so i DONT respect you or your past. i see hoes talking about hoes. laughing at them, talking shit because they fucked this person or that person and shes a whore and bla bla bla when in reality youre just insecure because YOU are a hoe as well and everyones looking at you because they are thinking the same shit but you think theyre your friends. and they all know that u think theyre your friends. so they wont say anything. why not??? why wont they say aything ?? BECAUSE THEY WANT TO FIT IN!!! the same things are popular with everyone. everyone wants to talk about the illuminati or zodiac signs but have u read a book about it? have u actually got on the computer and researched it? doubt it. i wish people would stop indetifying themselves with their zodiac. why have u lost yourself as an identifyer. why do u all of a sudden even care what youre considered because of your birthday ?? WHY?? BECAUSE YOU WANT TO FIT IN!! i hear people having really stupid conversations, smiling everytime a guy speaks to them, totally unaware of everything else at the moment. i see girls and guys walkin around real sloppy and i can TELL that all these individuals really are feelin themselves. and thats fine, be confident, strut your stuff go ahead but WHY do yu think this? because one guy smiled at you? because youre an aries? because u convinced everyone that beyonce is the leader of illuminati?? WHY?? you are a grown women/man. u need to find confidence some other way. u need to carry youself differently. simple minded people i feel see through tunnels (tunnel vision) they only see whats in front of them and thats it. maybe its because their fake eye lashes are too big that they lost their peripheral vision idk. but you need to open your eyes a little more. it really makes me sick that ppl think theyre cool and better than others pecause they sit in a circle or all are in the same car or all know the same people and then they shun everyone else like YOU ARE NOT COOL!! you are STUPID!! its not the technology killing us humans off and seperating us from ourselves and eachother. it not the money its not the fame its US!!! we are doing this to ourselves and we all are condoning it and we dont even know it, its natural . because WE ARE ALL TRYING TO FIT IN!! lately ive turned a new leaf. i want to make new friends. i want to meet new people. i want to know why they are here. what is their goals and why do they feel so determined to achieve it. and these are the people i want to suround myself with. i dont ever want to fit in! i want to stand out and if im a loner because of it , if i have a whole different “swag” because of it, thats fine i dont care i dont even want the swag you give me honestly i just want to be me. i dont wanna be labeled i dont wanna wanna be a scorpio and i dont want u to think that u know me bacuse of my zodiac sign bcecause you DONT! i was looking at this girl today, she was reading a book. and my mind started wandering, i was staring a little bit. she was just really petite, real pale, big glasses , what everyone else would call a nerd. first i thought “what is she reading” then i thought, “is it good?” then i was like “i wonder if she reads alot?” then i asked myself “i wonder what her home life is like. what is her personality? whats in her mind?” and i really wanted to ask. then this boy came and sat next to me and asked me if i was ok? i said “ya i was just looking at her” he said “are u playin for the other team or something?” my point exactly. i stare at a person wondering what theyre thinking and how their thoughts work. u see me staring and think its sexual! this is the world i live in. and i just cant deal anymore. you call her the nerd because shes not covered in jewelry and make up and shes spending her time reading a 6 inch thick book but what the fuck are YOU doing?? oh ya talking about zodiac signs. lemme ask u this, are u taking a zodiac CLASS? no ! are u taking a birthday class?? NO ! what did u learn from this convo??? NOTHING. what did she learn??? i rest my case. she stood out.. i remember her face, i dont remember yours i didnt even LOOK at yours because you are BASIC! youre trying to fit in. i dont want to fit in. laugh at her but laugh while u can because these nerds are the people your dumb simple minded asses are gonna be begging for a job from! i know its hard to think past 2 trains of thought but just try to get to 3. try to find a deeper meaning to something that isnt “shit happens” or “everything happens for a reason”… try FINDING that reason. maybe then youll “fit in” with the “nerds” and then youll stand out!! youre playiong in the wrong team people… peel your fake lashes off and take ur snapback off maybe youll see it !